I love football season. I love Saturday and Sunday during football season.

I don't know what was wrong with me yesterday. I was an emotional basket-case, seriously. I cried, like, ten times. I woke up crying (but that was legit), I cried when my boss spoke to me, I cried because I thought one of my patients (an older lady) was just too precious, and then I cried several more times just thinking. I think a lot of my emotions came from two sources.
One is my birth control. This shit is crazy and it makes me crazy, seriously. It makes me physically sick, I think. I think this because all month (the whole time I have been on it) I have felt physically ill. I constantly feel nauseous and then yesterday (the emotional day) I actually threw up twice. Needless to say, I will be changing next week.
The second source of my crazy emotions (I think) was the dream I had the night before (thus, the waking up crying). I had a dream that I was being raped and the person that I thought would save/help me just stood there and watched. The raper was a patient that comes into the dentist office where I work and the dream was SO realistic. I was in a car (with what I thought would be the saver) and the raper came up to the window and asked me to get out of the car to look at his teeth. I did and then he pushed me down and it went from there. I was screaming for the "saver" and when I looked up, he was just standing there watching! SO, I think that had a lot to do with my state-of-mind yesterday.
I would like to know what this dream means. If there are any dream-interpreters out there, please analyze this for me!

I can't wait to get out of this damn house. This morning, I found a beer can in my room and I promise it wasn't mine. It's hard to get away from someone when you are in "their house". God, I hope I am never like that.

Anyway, so tonight I am going to a local bar for a "concert". I guess it is concert, it is a bunch of DJs. Apparently it is a pretty big deal. I haven't ever been before but people have been talking about this for weeks, maybe even months, seriously. My only reserve is the crowd. There is suppose to be a huge turn out which means there will be lots of people there who I don't care to see. Not to mention it is going to be PACKED. I would just go and get super drunk so I won't be as concerned with the people there but, alas, I can't spend the night at the bar so I will at least need to be able to safely drive.  We will see, I guess.

I think I just contradicted myself in those last two paragraphs. But, whatever.